| Been 20 dayz since my last paper.... So long!!!!!!!! Such lengths of boredom and such periods of disappointments... Now I understand why working life makes ppl less optimistic about life...... It's actually the jobsearch that brings the whole point of view of LIFE down...... I am so sad... so disappointed in myself... really useless... maybe I shld juz pack my bks, buy new ones and go back to sch.... Or maybe I shld juz go back to BTI and be a lab rat... maybe I belong in such places where human relationship plays no part and everyone juz do wat they wan n wat is needed of them n get out of the place...... NO no!! I dun wan!!! I wan to work at somewhere interesting, where I can learn something.... Been really stressing myself out recently and really binge... on my wardrobe... bought so much new clothes that are in my view really extra... but somehow... buying something makes me feel like I've got something done... something I want done.... MY poor account tho.... Wonder wat job I'll end up with... this is all so exciting yet so depressing.... I want to work!!!!!! I'M BORED TO TEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thankfully me going Malaysia next week... n results are coming out when I return... such an exciting wk ahead... think my brains are going to explode from the pressure and excitement.... the push of excitement within and the pressure applied from outside.... =( |
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